పోయోనోళ్ళు అందరు మంచోళ్ళు ఉన్నోళ్ళు పోయినోళ్ళ తీపిగురుతులు

ani manasu kavi Athreyagaru eppudo chepparu. I have lost three persons very close to my heart. I lost my parents who gave me this life long time ago and my husband five years ago, the person with whom I have grown up literally, learnt many things in life, the most valuable things of all are being strong in any circumstance putting myself in Baba’s hands and being very independent.

Two weeks ago I lost my brother who is just 64 years old, it was a big shock to my whole family. We are eight siblings – four male and four female and I am the youngest in the family. My brother’s death has a slow poison impact on me. Some kind of sadness creeping all over me. The irony of his death is that he was a medical doctor and he died with lack of essential medical treatment (proper cardiac facility)  at Uganda, the place where he moved to after he retired in India as his son was working there. He too had been working in Tanzania and moved to Uganda a few months ago.

The reality hits me very deeply. Everything just happened in a week’s time, still I think the whole thing is a dream. God has His unique way of doing things. But it is very difficult to come in terms with the death of our closed ones. My brother’s very strong characteristic is helping people and his profession gave him an added opportunity. He was very dynamic.

Annayya, I know you will be a more powerful support and strength to vadina, Prashanthi and Babloo. Deep in our hearts, all your siblings love you very much and still we haven’t come in terms with your death. Take care of your self wherever you have been to, Love you and miss you very sorely.

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Scared ….

Scared ….

Scared of what? why? I do not know….

Scared of uncertainty of life, scared of age, scared of death

Scared of darkness

Scared of people, scared of people’s attitude

Scared of loosing loved ones, scared of loosing siblings

Scared of being alone