Shi-va is, but Shi-va is not something 🙏
This is what I should have said if I had spoken when you had Sathsang at Kathmandu with S1 group- returning from Kailash Yatra on 14th August.
It was such a great honor and privilege to sit before you, listen to you and talk to you. I should have opened my heart but then i decided not to as it was my very own experience I could narrate but not in a position to give any advice to any one – experience that is very personal and precious for me – those two days – two processes at Manasa Sarovar and Kailash – the moments to live for and the moments to die for 🙏
as a typical New Yorker, I daily walk 5 to 6 miles very easily. I have a little pride in that but a conscious pride. When I came to this Yatra – I did not wear that pride, I know that there is an altitude parameter involved in it but I have faith in the God I trust that He would not leave my hand on any day but after you (Sadhguru) came into my life – of course you have come into my life in a constipated way but after I got Shambhavi initiated by you at Philadelphia in May 2018, you are happening to me in a more conscious way – your saying resonates in my ears and in my heart – “do not think of what is possible and what is not possible” – align all four energies – physical, mental, emotional and life energies – and you could get whatever you want – this is the advice if I may, I would give it to anyone – and this is how I got into S1 group – initially started with S8 and then big NO for this year and finally into S1 – I have gone through all these stages with in hours to few days – do not think of what is possible and what is not possible …
Kailash was never in my list – for that matter I do not have a list – then Where is Shiva coming into my life from – SHI-VA – Is that which is not; is no-thing – I was not seeking for a guru at all – where is Sadhguru coming into my life – completely encroaching upon my life – I am not a very religious person – to be more specific not a very ritualistic person – I do my karma yoga – very consciously for the past 10 years – a registered New York Cares volunteer since my husband has left this physical world – teach math and English to adults of various age groups and SAT students – almost 4 days of the week after my working hours and during Spring, summer and fall months on Saturdays urban farming and parks revitalization projects, some times involved with handicapped kids playing basket ball – initially when I started 10 years ago I thought I would be helping them but in the process I have realized that they help me to be a better person every day.
There was a questionnaire I was answering at Kathmandu before we had Sathsang with you – one question – why you choose ISHA ? I have answered with all HUMILITY that ISHA has chosen me as I had many questions – why ISHA ? Why Sadhguru ? Why SHI-VA ? WHY KAILASH? Where is my life leading to … many questions – I got the answer in a very clear way – when I felt very sick at Kailash – badly hit by altitude sickness – I thought that it could be my last day / Sadhguru came before me clasping his hands in an intense prayer told me that he would not allow me to die – it would be a rebirth to me with a different mission – as Sadhguru mentioned if we feel the energies at Kailash for at least few moments, our lives would be benefitted immensely wonderful, I hope my life would blossom in such way to bring bliss to me and to people around me.
As I have travelled alone, during my sickness, loneliness and many humiliating moments I had faced or experienced during this trip, I had to cling on to Sadhguru and SHI-VA to become more stronger …
– i do not know whether I had left anything in Kailash but I had brought a big chunk of Kailash and Sadhguru with me to lead the rest of my life giving more profound meaning to life 🙏