This is the BIG question popping in my mind while I was on my way to Kailash – Shi-va, Kailash, Manasa Sarovar, travelling with some unknown people for 15 days (which I never thought I would do), dying for oxygen on those high elevations, chanting Shiva Shamboo through out my 14 km parikrama at an elevation of close to 16000 ft – even before I started for this trip, many questions were popping out my mind – why Shi-va, why ISHA, why Sadhguru, everything happened in a blink of an eye – in a matter of 3 months. I had wonderful moments at the processes performed at Manasa Sarovar and Kailash. But the questions were being popped out since then or even before. I even asked this question at #unplugWithSadhguru when there was a month long campaign where Sadhguru traveled to many places in India to have a conversation with youth of India #YouthAndTruth. I was little envy for the celebrities when they got their questions answered in an elaborate way.
I do not remember doing poojas to Shiva when I was a child neither my husband was a Shivite – He was more for Venkateswara Swami. We were doing Shiva rathris when we were kids so that we could watch back to back movies or playing games.
But for some reason, for the past 10 years, I have been observing Kartheeka Masam very devotedly – fasting through the whole month. But not doing any specific poojas nor chanting any Shiva Stotras during that time.
That is the reason the question has been popping of my head especially when any one says that I was so lucky to do this pilgrimage.
Then suddenly few days ago, I found an answer for my quest. It just got into me and I felt like Sadhguru has answered my question – the question that is bothering me a lot – where is Shiva coming into my life from ……
I read the same page, the page from which I have found the answer – (from the book Adiyogi The Source of Yoga by Sadhguru and Arundhathi Subramaniam) to my nephew while we were travelling to Boston immediately after I have returned from my Kailash Yatra. I was just flipping that book and randomly that content got my attention and read it to him. Even at my 60th birthday surprise party few weeks ago, I spoke the gist of that paragraph but some how I was not able to join the dots.
I really loved the essence of it and took a pic several weeks ago to post it in FB and Instagram, but did not do it for some reason. I want to write an excerpt from that page
“Shiva should not be kept in your home. Shiva is not meant for those who are simply seeking a little more profit, a little more advantage out of life … Shiva is only meant for those whose greed in unlimited, for those who are not willing to settle for life in installments, for those who want to become one with the very source of existence…. If you have the courage, you carry him within you. If you seeking the highest, you do not keep him in your home. You carry him in your heart.”
I was so overwhelmed with ecstasy. And today Sadhguru’s tweet made me very emotional and felt truly blessed. “If you have really been with me even for one moment, this is your last life.”