About Sarada Purushotham

Truly believe in the saying - "The value of anything you own, lies in its utility, not in its possession". My heart is very close to kids and education. I am involved in some educational programs through New York Cares, the city's largest volunteer organization, running volunteer programs for 1,200 nonprofits, city agencies and public schools. I want to explore and expand the horizon and go beyond what I am visualizing at present ...

A year in Review – Reflections on 2018

b0d2c169-fc61-4173-975a-7ade59e06ea0A year in Review – a memorable year in my life – so many wonderful memories and experiences, traveled to places which I never thought I would go – not even existent in my non-existent list … experienced the transformation of my life in an amazing way – the essence of the year is the profoundness of Sadhguru’s grace upon me. The amount of travel I have done this year and the places I have been to have never happened to me in my entire life. This year had another significance in my life – my 60th birth year.

The year started with my usual India trip in Feb, immediately few days after I landed in Hyd – we had a mini family vacation with 12 adults and 3 kids to Goa to celebrate Unnu’s and Prati’s birthdays. We have stayed at Taj Exotic Resort & Spa at Benaulim – staying next to the beach, chasing the Sun from Sunrise to Sunset, walk as much as I would love to, walking in the sand near the beach and going into waves as much as I can and bumping into one of the family members all the time, roaming in and around the area are some of the amazing moments I could keep it in my heart so fondly. I always always love to watch Sunrises, Sunsets especially when I am around beaches, and oceans. I make a point to wake up early just to watch Sunrises.

96C71EA9-E061-4812-BC7A-5E1B79782408Then I went to Anakapalle and Vizag for few days after almost close to 40 years. Anakapalle – the place where I  was born and brought up – the place where I spent most of my life in India – 18 years of my 22 years in India – so many childhood and adulthood memories, the places I visited there were the College where My father worked as Principal for 18 years and the college quarters where we lived. To my disbelief, I could not even spot the place where our houses were – all 6 houses were demolished, I could not even recognize the place except for few places. In my memory that place was very huge but somehow I felt it very small especially from my dad’s office to our house. I wish I could have stayed there for considerable time to visit and feel every little spot I have memories with, but I could not as it was very hot and the place is wide open. Thanks to Chanti (Yashodhara) who made it possible. And we visited Nookalamma temple at Kasimkota and returned back to Vizag. I met few of my cousins, had lunch with them all. As Chanti lives close to Rama Krishna Beach, we both went for a walk along beach side before sunrise to get a glimpse of Sunrise over the Bay of Bengal – moments to live for and moments to die for …

And a week after my return from India, Sekhar and I instantaneously decided over a cup of coffee at Dunkin Donuts to attend Inner Engineering (IE) with Sadhguru at Philadelphia in the first week of May. That is the best decision I ever made and wonderful things in my life have been happening since I attended IE.

Read this – The Profound Effect of Sadhguru upon me – how he came into my life years ago before IE Happened to me

That was a huge milestone in my life. When we were at IE program, we were shown a video of Kailash Yatra with Sadhguru and it touched me very deeply. Through out the IE program, a desire born like a seed and has grown into humongous tree – Kailash Yatra with Sadhguru – it was a burning desire – never in my life I had given any thought of being at Kailash not in my dreams.
So the Monday after inner Engineering, I have opened my FB, and it asked me what is on your mind Sarada – I immediately posted the following
kailash“What’s on your mind, Sarada” FB is asking.
I would say #KailashYatra with Sadhguru; Inner Engineering course has a profound affect on me, every atom and molecule in me is longing for #KailashYatra; feeling highly emotional; whether I can do it with my knee issues🤔 ; but then remembering Sadhguru’s sayings – do not think of what is possible and what is not possible 🙏

And how my Kailash yatra happened – Shi-va alone knows – My inward journey to Kailash

This is what I would have said if I had to at Sathsang with Sadhguru in Kathmandu on our return trip from Kailash – SHI-VA that which is not

Everything happened in a matter of 3 months – IE, the desire to be at Kailash and finishing Kailash Manasasarovar Yatra. Truly blessed.

dhyanalingaIn between these two major events, I had another desire to visit Dhyanalinga at ISHA Center Coimbattore, India, that too on Guru pournami day. and I was reading at ISha website that only two days in a month – Amavasya and Pournami days all the devotees are allowed to do water and milk abishekam to Dhyana Linga and the desire becoming intense day after day. When I went to India before I started Kailash yatra, I had to stay at Hyderabad for 5 days awaiting for my group visa to Tibet. I planned a day trip to Isha Ashram at Coimbattore on Gurupournami day.e8c5aef2-82ef-41ac-a1a4-94164ba2437b

Visiting Isha Ashramam at Coimbattore India – July 2018 on Guru Pournami Day

Kailash and ManasaSarovar yAtra in detail in another article

I wanted to attend Bava Spandana (BSP) with Sadhguru – an intense desire aroused- when I heard that Sadhguru would be conducting this program at Isha Institute of Inner-Sciences (III) at McMinnville, Tennessee in October. I was just praying it should not be the same weekend as Ram Sai’s wedding (my very close family friend’s son), he is like my child, he and his sister are literally like my own kids, I have seen them from their birth, celebrating Christmas times with them at their place and at my place year after year, a very strong bonding with those kids to me and to my husband. To test my intense desire, BSP happened the same weekend as his wedding weekend. So initially I dropped the idea of BSP and did not want to apply as I would not go anyways. I was in Hyderabad before my Kailash yatra started when the registration for BSP opened up and I have received an email with the registration form. I did not take any action and my cousin’s wife from Buffalo called me and my cousin mentioned about the BSP and he told me that he has applied and asked me to apply and I told him the same as I would not be able to attend BSP; nevertheless after the phone conversation, I have applied for it and knew that there were remote chances only of getting into it. Throughout my Kailash trip, I was trying to check my mail where ever I got internet and I was not sure with which email I have registered – personal or office. I was not able to open my personal gmail through out almost my trip and I was sort of concerned what if I miss the confirmation email. People I met during Kailash trip told me how amazing BSP was and it should be taken by Sadhguru only and was also told it would be very difficult to get a slot when Sadhguru is conducting the program and there was a rumor going around that he would stop conducting this program soon and hand it over to trained teachers. I was back to New York from kailash trip on 16 August and went to Boston with unnu on 18th August and returned to New York on 21 August. That night I was talking to Lakshmi and I asked her whether Sridhar had gotten any message from ISHA regarding BSP and she said they haven’t received any. After I finished conversing with her, I have opened my office email and to my astonishment, I have received an email from ISHA around 7 pm confirming my slot for BSP (19 October to 22 October). I was on cloud 9 or whatever high I could be at that moment. I had to respond to them in 4 days otherwise I would loose my spot. Then the real struggle started – how to convey this to my friend – I have applied with the real intention of attending BSP and I knew my chances were very feeble. I applied (even though back in the mind there was a strong desire to attend) not to regret later that i did not even make an attempt. the next day I called my friend and broke the news to her and she was not very happy. But luckily they were performing pellikoduku (making the bridegroom) function on Raleigh, North Carolina on 18th October and I told her that I would attend that event and go to McMinnville, Tennessee from there on 19th morning. She was not very happy for that. But for some reason I did not want to miss attending BSP as there was no guarantee that Sadhguru would conduct this program again and even if he did that I would get a slot. Then I started listening all stories from my ISHA Kailash yatra whatsapp group that they did not get their slot and have been on waitlist even last year also. So BSP happened to me in a very euphoric way. another article on BSP (not in detail but just to touch it peripherally) would follow soon. I really felt everyone I know or unknown without any exceptions should experience BSP. Looking forward to volunteer for BSP to relive those moments again.

Then with in 2 weeks after I finished my BSP, I had an opportunity to volunteer at Inner Engineering with Sadhguru at San Mateo, San Francisco on 3-4 November. So much blessed to be in Sadhguru’s presence for so many times in a matter of 7 months. Initially Inner engineering with Sadhguru at Phily in May, about 30 minutes in his sathsang at Isha Center Coimbattore end of July, almost 3 hours of Sathsang with Sadhguru at Kathmandu on my way back from Kailash yatra, 3 and half intense days with Sadhguru as BSP at Tennessee, IE at San Francisco – blessings to be grateful for.

I have volunteered 4 days at a teacher led IE program in New York on my 60th birthday – how blessed I was to spend at IE on my milestone birthday.

I had a nice birthday party with family at prashanthi’s place and she has made a cake for me with all the things and people I am so passionate about.

Of course I had a real surprise birthday party from all the people whom I would proudly, lovingly, and dearly called my second family Surprise birth

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day party – 60 is just a number

Thankful and grateful for all these loving people in my life …

Then came Christmas – wondering what should I do with ornaments as handmade and handcrafted have become my signature these days – then Unnu came up with the idea of family photos ornaments – actually she said I should make photo ornaments – 60 things I am very passionate about (to commemorate my 60th birthday) – here is the Christmas tree – No No family Christmas tree – have a glimpse – I was able to bring my maternal grand father, my mom with her sisters, my parents, my siblings, people very close to my heart  – the big challenge is to select the pics and reprint them – I missed making ornaments of many other people those are close to my heart and take some space in my life, not overlooking them, but in the limited time and resources I had (time to go through my albums to pick their pictures, get them printed and also the availability of CD shaped clear ornaments).

and I tried to push my boundaries – baking cakes/cup cakes.

PR cakemade#DoubleLayeredVanillaCoconutCake with lemon curd in between the layers and topped with blueberries and raspberries and dark chocolate covered Almonds;

Few of our office staff had planned a baby shower to our colleague Monica and there were not sufficient funds, so I have decided to bake a small cake for the party – Coconut lemon curd cake (which I have tried once for Prashanthi’s birthday). monica baby showerI wanted to make double layer but I could not handle it. So a single layered cake which received nice appreciative comments from my colleagues. For Thanksgiving get together at my sister’s place, I have made chocolate cup cakes and with all the appreciation I received, I made Sparkling Cranberry Vanilla cup cakes and Chocolate cup cakes for my office Christmas party. Actually 2 days before the party, I was talking to Unnu and checking something on the phone and suddenly these Sparkling Cranberry vanilla cup cakes showed up with the recipe. The pics were so attractive and I thought I should try it and they are instantaneous hit. Again I baked the same combination for the Christmas get-together at Prashanthi’s place.

And I tried my hands on some healthy salads – my very own recipes

Of course I laid my hands on Photography classes another passion I would want to be proficient in – Prashanthi gave me beginner’s photography class (JP Teaches Photo) at Manhattan as a gift for 2017 Christmas and I have used it in March and then I got so excited and registered with them for 3 more classes. So much fun but I have to learn a lot. Mastering the art of photography is one of my ever lasting passions. and it has become a burning desire when volunteers at Isha going around with the state of the art cameras at Isha events especially when the events are led by Sadhguru.

And 35 years at the UN –

I have traveled a lot this year than in any other year of my life since I was born. Year started with my India trip in Feb – where I traveled to Goa and Vizag), then to Philadelphia to attend IE in May, then to Buffalo in May for few days, then again to India in July – visited Isha Ashramam in Coimbattore, kathmandu, Tibet, ManasaSarovar, Kailash, after my return, few days to Boston, and to Raleigh in October to attend Ram Sai’s pellikoduku function, then to Isha Institute at Tennessee to participate in BSP, then to San Francisco to volunteer at IE. I missed the last trip of the year to Van Cover with my vadina which was cancelled at the last minute.

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So many accomplishments, so much to thankful for, so much to looking forward to – the profound effect of Sadhguru on my life changes the way I think, I act and I react and I move on with life as it happens – In is the only way out

I do not know how it unfolds 2019 for me but as an Ishaan, I am ready for life as it is happening and explore every possible dimension of life. My only prayer and wish is let Sadhguru happen to every creature on this universe.

 

 

 

 

 

 

Visiting Isha Ashramam at Coimbattore India – July 2018 on Guru Pournami Day

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In between these two major events, Inner Engineering and Kailash Manasa Sarovar yatra with Sadhguru, another desire borne – to visit Dhyanalinga at ISHA Center Coimbattore, India, that too on Guru pournami day as I was reading somewhere  only two days in a month – Amavasya and Pournami days all the devotees are allowed to do water and milk abishekam to Dhyana Linga and the desire becoming intense day after day. When I went to India before I started Kailash yatra, I had to stay at Hyderabad for 5 days awaiting for my group visa to Tibet. I planned a day trip to Isha Ashram at Coimbattore on Gurupournami day. Even when I was still in US, I was making inquires (by sending emails to ISHA foundation) whether I could attend any of Sadhguru’s programs on that day as I wanted to see/hear him at least for few min. There was Sathsang in Tamil (apparently he was speaking only in Tamil) and it would start around 12 pm and goes until midnight as chandra grahanam or lunar eclipse fell on that day. Even though it is in Tamil, I just want to stay there for few min to have Sadhguru’s darshan and listen to him for few minutes even though I do not know Tamil. But I was told that once I sit in sathsang, I was not allowed to leave the place (I know how strict Isha people are in that

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So I was there around noon time and i got awestruck looking at 112 feet Adiyogi welcoming me very affectionately.

 

 

I was in a rush to go to Dhyana linga even though my aid was suggesting to visit Linga

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Bhairavi (there was a long line there too), I went to Adiyogi Alayam. I read that water abhishekam f

rom 6 am to 12 pm and Milk abhishekam from noon

till 6 pm. So I did not want to miss my chances of water abhishekam. But of course due to some miscommunication, I did not get a chance for water abhishekam. And I was just sitting there not to loose my chances for milk abshishekam. My aid suddenly came with a vessel full of water and told me that it was Kailsah water and I could do abhishekam and my joy knew no bounds. Then I got to milk abhishekam also – do not think of what is possible and what is not possible.

 

Around 2:30 pm I cam out of Dhyanalinga and had some lunch and wanted to visit Linga Bhairavi but the temple was closed and I was told it would be opened at 5 pm. So I went to dhyanalinga and sat for 2 hours – I was not in any deep meditation or any of that sort, but some how I did not feel like getting out. when we came out and went to Linga Bhairavi temple, we were told that there was going to be a special pooja for ammavaru and the tickets were sold out by then and we were told to wait and may be after 7 pm ( after amma vari procession around the ashram premises, we would get to go in the temple. I was sitting out side and all the mantras that are being chanted in the temple are very well audible to us sitting in the open premises out side. And it is was nice cool evening and listening to the sacred chants was an amazing experience. I was sitting little farther from the temple and more people are coming and sitting very close to the temple, I also went and sit at a corner. after I sat there no one was allowed to sit next to me, even if people were coming , they were being directed ny the volunteers t go the other side. I thought I was sitting at the back and to a corner. To my amazement, amma varu came out for procession and she just quietly passed by my side, just goosebumps and thank all my stars with such a blessing (as I was little bit disappointed (not very much though) as I was not allowed to enter the temple) as ammavaru came and walked just by my side to bless me and compensate for the little disappointment I had undergone.

1a04cfb6-981b-4638-8133-9d24d3d844ff.pngOnce that happened, I immediately found my way out to go out the ashram as I need to catch my flight in a couple of hours. When I was approaching Adiyogi, I heard Sadhguru speaking in English. He was having Sathsang in front of Adiyogi in an vast open space. I was in an extremely blissful state as I could see him, hear him in English. I was standing there for another 20 min. He was almost at the tail end of his Sathsang in English, there was guru stotra for another 10 min by the fabulous Sounds Of Isha group and then Sadhguru started his Sathsang in Tamil.

I am thankful for every min of my visit to Isha Ashram. Every desire fulfilled in a beautiful way.b0d2c169-fc61-4173-975a-7ade59e06ea0

 

Where is SHI-VA coming into my life from …

This is the BIG question popping in my mind while I was on my way to Kailash  – Shi-va, Kailash, Manasa Sarovar, travelling with some unknown people for 15 days (which I never thought I would do), dying for oxygen on those high elevations, chanting Shiva Shamboo through out my 14 km parikrama at an elevation of close to 16000 ft – even before I started for this trip, many questions were popping out my mind – why Shi-va, why ISHA, why Sadhguru, everything happened in a blink of an eye – in a matter of 3 months. I had wonderful moments at the processes performed at Manasa Sarovar and Kailash.  But the questions were being popped out since then or even before. I even asked this question at #unplugWithSadhguru when there was a month long campaign where Sadhguru traveled to many places in India to have a conversation with youth of India #YouthAndTruth. I was little envy for the celebrities when they got their questions answered in an elaborate way.

I do not remember doing poojas to Shiva when I was a child neither my husband was a Shivite – He was more for Venkateswara Swami. We were doing Shiva rathris when we were kids so that we could watch back to back movies or playing games.

But for some reason, for the past 10 years, I have been observing Kartheeka Masam very devotedly – fasting through the whole month. But not doing any specific poojas nor chanting any Shiva Stotras during that time.

That is the reason the question has been popping of my head especially when any one says that I was so lucky to do this pilgrimage.

Then suddenly few days ago, I found an answer for my quest. It just got into me and I felt like Sadhguru has answered my question – the question that is bothering me a lot – where is Shiva coming into my life from ……

I read the same  page, the page from which I have found the answer – (from the book Adiyogi The Source of Yoga by Sadhguru and Arundhathi Subramaniam) to my nephew while we were travelling to Boston immediately after I have returned from my Kailash Yatra. I was just flipping that book and randomly that content got my attention and read it to him. Even at my 60th birthday surprise party few weeks ago,  I spoke the gist of that paragraph but some how I was not able to join the dots.

I really loved the essence of it and took a pic several weeks ago to post it in FB and Instagram, but did not do it for some reason. I want to write an excerpt from that page

Shiva should not be kept in your home. Shiva is not meant for those who are simply seeking a little more profit, a little more advantage out of life … Shiva is only meant for those whose greed in unlimited, for those who are not willing to settle for life in installments, for those who want to become one with the very source of existence…. If you have the courage, you carry him within you. If you seeking the highest, you do not keep him in your home. You carry him in your heart.”

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I was so overwhelmed with ecstasy. And today Sadhguru’s tweet made me very emotional and felt truly blessed. “If yopic 1u have really been with me even for one moment, this is your last life.” 

Surprise birthday party – 60 is just a number

PHOTO-2018-09-23-09-13-18Thank you everyone who has been part of this amazing party 🙏🏻
I was anticipating something would be happening but not expected this. When I reached the venue and felt you all there inside, I was little upset momentarily, I was not mad at anyone, not even at Prashanthi but I felt very uneasy, the only thought I had was I would have come little prepared not like the one walking on Manhattan streets 🤣 even if Unnu hadn’t brought my sarees, I would have stayed in those clothes I came in – since that is what ‘true me’ – right ? The rest are all accessories – so many layers and extensions we have been adding …

If I had known earlier that you were planing this, I would not have accepted it. The main reason is I do not want to be ‘the center of attraction’.  The second reason is I do not want to waste money on these things. If you had still insisted, we could have a potluck get together at someone’s place and donate the money to a cause.
even I am thinking about the same with the gift if you all could agree for that – if we could return it and donate the money for a cause.

Putting aside all these, it was so nice to see the whole family with the exception few people who have been very close to me and not able to be there – Karthi, Tammy, Lakshmi, Prithi, Madhurima and Sneha and the list goes on and on as my ‘inclusiveness’ is bringing more people into my life (getting greedy in an unlimited way in Sadhguru’s sayings) and the bonding with everyone is getting stronger day after day.

Nevertheless, where should I start thanking people from ….
C713E905-5229-4458-A6DB-760CE43194DBI’ll start with my sister who has taken all the trouble traveling by different modes of transportation to come from Flushing to almost Trenton with her knee problems – thank you Geetha akka for your love, affection and concern for me and of course I missed Karthi;

263556EC-AF72-403A-B71F-11B6F472C60CThank you Lakshmi and Krishna Mohan to take the trouble to be part of this event as you are not attending many events nowadays and also thank you Krishna Mohan for mentioning and remembering chinna annayya – very touching 🙏🏻

73C8C644-E670-483C-B796-9C6F0D1377BDI would like to thank Radhika and Sekhar as through the WhatsApp conversations realized as they have spearheaded the event and selecting the restaurant 🙏🏻 by trying various places – don’t blame me Sekhar for putting on few pounds 😜and wishing their best wishes through video clippings – besides all these, I have a special bonding with Sekhar, we try to share things happening in our lives either sad or happy or anything in between and try to gossip sometimes 🙊🙉 and I try to be his mentor sometimes – whether it works or not 🤔

C2950704-A912-4599-B96B-CF218D7755ABI want to thank Ramana and Radhika for taking time to decorate the venue place which is so beautiful;I really know how much work is involved – time wise, ideas wise and etc., special thanks to Ramana for doing all these irrespective of her knee pain. Very truly appreciated your love ❤️

Ramu and Ramana – thank you for the beautiful song – ee mounam – from Dr. Chakravarthy – one of my fav ANR garu’s songs and with that song you tried to cover Akkinenis completely (very passionate for Akkinenis from my childhood) and always Ramu makes me feel emotional by his compliments for the works I do and calling me a ‘Role Model’ happy tears 😅and big hug 🤗

480874CD-5B35-4FAD-B5F4-CAC8FB6CBC35Kameswari and Kanth – for posting some fake WhatsApp messages in our small group fitness freaks that evening and also selecting Apple Watch ⌚️ and Kanth saying some nice things about me 😊 and Kameswari calling me a ‘good sport’ 😊 did I have a choice 🤣

9D4ACEB7-55F1-418E-86E2-5C4D840F2801Ramana and Sirisha – for being part of the event and Ramana for challenging me for cards game and talking about our good olden days 🤗 and also mentioning about 2017 Kailash Yatra video, that is just a sample 😜

 

 

EC8B5A0C-DE09-47A8-A3D1-1B0AF7E98829Radha – thanks for being there and brought back those beautiful memories of your childhood and making uncle and me a big part of yours and Ram Sai’s childhood. ❤️ and hugs 🤗

 

 

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Uma, Ramesh – thank you very much for that lovely video clip from your family and I was so surprised and happy to see Rhea being very close to me – she has appreciated the colors of my saree 🤗and even she has invited me to your place before she was leaving. So lovely and thanks for being part of event.

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Padmaja and Rajesh – thank you very much for being there and part of the team efforts to make this event happen in a beautiful way.

 

09EC13E0-A715-4CED-8C66-52EF9EB711D4Radha, Siri – thank you for being there as it has become a rarity to see you at the parties (I guess we haven’t had any lately) and it just hit me that I am 60 when Radha wished me as ‘Sastipurthi’ 🙉🙈

Satya Thank you for singing that beautiful song 😍😘❤️

 

Rachana and Tanvi for bringing so much happiness to me and delight to everyone by dancing for my one and only fav hero – Nagarjuna’s songs – picked from three different times – vesamkalam vennelalona … nee kosam nee kosam; Soggadae Chinni Nayana; greekuveerudu naa rakumarudu .. ❤️❤️❤️😍😍🤗🤗😘😘

And Rachhu for sharing your memories of spending time with me along with Nikki and how I have protected you from the pigeons 😜 and made me realize I should take you to a Broadway show.

Sowmya and Ramya – again you Yamarthy sisters rocked with picking chaitanya’s and Samantha’s songs
From their debut movie to their latest ones – YMC, UTurn, RRVC, again all my fav songs ❤️😍😘

How come you girls ignored Akhil Akkineni 🤔🙁

Then comes our Akhil – you have really touched me by calling your second MOM – that is the best birthday gift I could ask for – I am on my journey to become an ‘Universal Mother’ (hopefully that is Sadhguru’s future mission for me) – what an honor, thank you very much Akhil 😘❤️

Rishi Babu – thank you very much for recollecting a very nice memory of ours. I am so used to read books for Karthi when he was a child and I would never say NO to read a bed time story. So much love ❤️ and 🤗

Surya – you really surprised me when you came before the mike to talk and dwell a nice memory of Toys R Us – thank you very much Surya 🤗

Tarun – thank you very much by acknowledging every one’s statement that I am RELIABLE 🤗😘 and I always think you are more matured to your age as sometimes you speak absolute truths in a casual manner. Love you ❤️

Chaitanya – thank you very much for expressing your love towards me and also speaking on behalf of Karthi – as you two are always my leg pullers; love you a lot 🤗

Unnu thank you very much for being here and I know for every birthday your wish was to be here with me to make me celebrate my big day and your wish was so STRONG that it happened this year itself ❤️😍😘🤗 and putting a poker face when I talked to you that morning about something was cooking and I could feel it ….

E2D9DC70-346B-4315-BEAE-3A7817ACE7D2Last but not the least – a big BEAR HUG to Prashanthi for considering me as her MOThER – you are all assuring me I am on a RIGHT Path and making such a beautiful video, I know how hectic task it is to communicate with people and getting messages and compiling them with nice apt music at the background especially when Arya was sick the whole week.i ❤️Manam background And also not leaking anything and made me to go the event … and also the way you expressed your concern and fears but how everyone of you has sent me to Kailash Yatra 🙏🏻

my birthday picI have to thank one more person here – Abigail- Arya’s friend who came to the party and scared by looking our gang and she literally got shivers and decided to stay away from us 😜 while we were returning , she wanted to have music played in the car despite of the fact she was very sleepy (she heard and simultaneously sang many songs while we were driving to the venue ) and she asked some singer or some series where there is a Happy Birthday Song – I knew immediately that she was asking that song for me and while the song was half way through chaitanya asked her why she has chosen that song and she said it was the birthday of someone in the car – I must say Girls are very mature – love you Abhi 😘😍🤗

Sorry for keeping you all waited for so long at the venue since it was a surprise for me it was very difficult for Prashanthi to keep me on the track for an outing and also the restaurant is far away from our place. even our Arya didn’t give me a clue when I asked him several times where we were going, love you Arya Babu and Shakti Babu for enjoying the dance 💃🏻 💃🏻💃🏻💃🏻

And you people have a nerve to ask me whether it was a surprise 🙈👺 looking at me, my dress, my hair, my face, and my sneakers.

I love you all a lot and please consider my request for returning the gift and donate to a cause 🙏🏻

  1. Prashanthi’s beautiful compilation from you all  This is the video link
  2. Link to pictures more pics to be added

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SHI-VA that which is not

Shi-va is, but Shi-va is not something 🙏

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To Sadhguru:
This is what I should have said if I had spoken when you had Sathsang at Kathmandu with S1 group- returning from Kailash Yatra on 14th August.
It was such a great honor and privilege to sit before you, listen to you and talk to you. I should have opened my heart but then i decided not to as it was my very own experience I could narrate but not in a position to give any advice to any one – experience that is very personal and precious for me – those two days – two processes at Manasa Sarovar and Kailash – the moments to live for and the moments to die for 🙏
as a typical New Yorker,  I daily walk 5 to 6 miles very easily. I have a little pride in that but a conscious pride. When I came to this Yatra – I did not wear that pride, I know that there is an altitude parameter involved in it but I have faith in the God I trust that He would not leave my hand on any day but after you (Sadhguru) came into my life – of course you have come into my life in a constipated way but after I got Shambhavi initiated by you at Philadelphia in May 2018, you are happening to me in a more conscious way – your saying resonates in my ears and in my heart – “do not think of what is possible and what is not possible” – align all four energies – physical, mental, emotional and life energies – and you could get whatever you want – this is the advice if I may, I would give it to anyone – and this is how I got into S1 group – initially started with S8 and then big NO for this year and finally into S1 – I have gone through all these stages with in hours to few days – do not think of what is possible and what is not possible …

Kailash was never in my list – for that matter I do not have a list – then Where is Shiva coming into my life from  – SHI-VA – Is that which is not; is no-thing – I was not seeking for a guru at all – where is Sadhguru coming into my life  – completely encroaching upon my life – I am not a very religious person – to be more specific not a very ritualistic person – I do my karma yoga – very consciously for the past 10 years – a registered New York Cares volunteer since my husband has left this physical world – teach math and English to adults of various age groups and SAT students – almost 4 days of the week after my working hours and during Spring, summer and fall months on Saturdays  urban farming and parks revitalization projects, some times involved with handicapped kids playing basket ball – initially when I started 10 years ago I thought I would be helping them but in the process I have realized that they help me to be a better person every day.

There was a questionnaire I was answering at Kathmandu before we had Sathsang with you – one question – why you choose ISHA ? I have answered with all HUMILITY that ISHA has chosen me as I had many questions – why ISHA ? Why Sadhguru ? Why SHI-VA ? WHY KAILASH? Where is my life leading to … many questions  – I got the answer in a very clear way – when I felt very sick at Kailash – badly hit by altitude sickness – I thought that it could be my last day / Sadhguru came before me clasping his hands in an intense prayer told me that he would not allow me to die – it would be a rebirth to me with a different mission – as Sadhguru mentioned if we feel the energies at Kailash for at least few moments, our lives would be benefitted immensely wonderful, I hope my life would blossom in such way to bring bliss to me and to people around me.

As I have travelled alone, during my sickness, loneliness and many humiliating moments I had faced or experienced during this trip,  I had to cling on to Sadhguru and SHI-VA to become more stronger …
– i do not know whether I had left anything in Kailash but  I had brought a  big chunk of Kailash and Sadhguru with me to lead the rest of my life giving more profound meaning to life 🙏FF27ACD7-4850-40D0-81C0-F6E4DC30BB36.jpeg

The profound effect of inner engineering and Sadhguru upon me

sadhguruIt is a very long story – I start with Sadhguru- it may be in 2011 or 2012, Muni Krishna garu mentioned to me about Sadhguru and he offered some books if I am interested to read. I am not a reader at all – I was reading Telugu novels, weekly and monthly magazine serials during my school and college days but once after I came to US in 1980, some how i slowly stopped reading may be because of the unavailability of the magazines. So with a subtle smile I got over his kind offer.

ishanaAfter I came back home, I was watching Telugu pop singer Smitha’s interview on YouTube on the eve of the release of her new album Ishana – where she talked about her inner engineering experience and what a profound effect it had on her and how it changed her life – I was quite amazed how anything or any one could change someone’s life in 4 days. The curiosity or inquisitiveness in me provoked me to check for inner engineering programs in US and I found one with Sadhguru at ISHA center Nashville, Tennessee. I checked with them whether they could provide me with any accommodation, and they said no, I did not want to be on my own in an unknown terrain and dropped that idea. But I bought Ishana album on iTunes immediately and I have listened to it very intensely for so long.
sadhguru at UN 2In 2016, Sadhguru addressed United Nations on the first International day of Yoga. So we attended the event and it was in the open space on the East Side of the building near the fountain around mid day, Since it was in the afternoon., he made us practice Upa Yoga which can be done at any time of the day. So I was like 10 to 20 feet away from

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him. That was my first ever personal met up with Sadhguru. Since then hearing Sadhguru for a few min here and there or reading his quotes and saving those which touched my inner core. Then I heard his full speech live when he addressed from Isha center Tennessee on the eve of new year 2017 where I wax awestruck to listen and to understand his expression “be greedy in an unlimited way” – including the whole universe in youwhat a magnificent thought.

In 2017, during my usual India visit in Feb, on Maha Sivarathri day, Adi yogi consecration happened at Isha center at Coimbatore and it was telecasted live on TV and the whole family was watching in the family room and I was getting glimpses of it here and there and after certain time everyone settled in their own rooms and watched it past midnight. The next day morning when I woke up and opened Facebook and awestruck to see the gigantic, the most beautiful Adi Yogi consecrated and I could not turn away my eyes from his beauty, magnanimity, exuberance, and equanimity.

In 2018, the same episode – I did not watch live broadcast from Isha Coimbatore on Maha Sivarathri. I returned from India on 14th March and Sadhguru was addressing on water issues at UN on World Water Day on 22 March with small plenary group of ECOSOC and I wanted to attend the event but it was a snow storm day and I telecommuted butI should have gone as I live a block away from UN. I would regret and not regret at the same time for missing the event. That experience of meeting him with out Shambhavi initiation by him would be totally meaningless compared to the out of the world experience after Shambhavi initiation with him; what I have been going through for the past 3 months, I’ll keep my entire life in his hands with out any inhibitions.

So two days after I came from India in March this year, I was having coffee with Sekhar in Dunkin Donuts, suddenly I asked him whether we should register for inner engineering with Sadhguru in Philadelphia which is on 5th and 6th May. Without taking a moment he nodded positively. Within 2 days we have registered for the event.
So I would /should say Sadhguru came into my life in a constipated 😜way – by bits and pieces – he uses this word a lot in his  discourses😊
I was burst into tears when he talked about motherly love – listening to him when our eyes were closed – willingness to be a mother to one child – 10 children, 100, 10000,  1 million, 10 million, 100 million. And ultimately to the whole universe with out thinking of the physicalities/practicalities. It really touched the right chord with his soothing voice and I bursted into tears. I was in ecstasy. Then we were asked to be very silent for a while – not to get out of that mood / no eye contact no signs no talking with anyone. Then we got Shambhavi initiation – a few breathing exercises (our eyes are closed through out the process) consecrated by his life energies takes me to another world and I felt like he is talking standing in front of me and I was in tears the whole 21 min. Second time Shambhavi in the evening again in his presence, I was really moved by the whole experience.
We were supposed to practice Shambhavi twice a day for 40 days and once for six months after. I did not waste a day and started my Shambhavi from the following day. I did not wait for the first Sathsang which happens on the second Saturday at New York center. I got few of my corrections while I am doing my Shambhavi by none other than my guru. Initially I thought I was moved to tears while practicing Shambhavi at Phily as I was doing in Sadhguru’s presence but it continues to be the same even I was doing at home. Quickly I have noticed lot of subtle changes in my thought process, reacting to events in every day of life, more inclusiveness than I naturally possess.
Since inner Engineering, I was glued to Sadhguru’s videos / passionate to listen to him, stopped watching what ever I watch on TV 😊🤗
When we were at inner engineering, we were shown a video of Kailash Yatra with Sadhguru and it touched me very deeply.
So the Monday after inner Engineering, I have opened my FB, and it asked me what is on your mind Sarada – I immediately posted the following
“What’s on your mind, Sarada” FB is asking.
I would say #KailashYatra with Sadhguru; Inner Engineering course has a profound affect on me, every atom and molecule in me is longing for #KailashYatra; feeling highly emotional; whether I can do it with my knee issues🤔 ; but then remembering Sadhguru’s sayings – do not think of what is possible and what is not possible 🙏
This saying got sunk in me very deeply and apply for everything in my daily life / I swear it works like magic.

So I immediately checked Isha Sacred Walks and there are 9 groups for people living in abroad S1 to S9, and 9 groups for people living in India, they open up these registrations in December of the previous year for the sacred walks to begin on 31 July and all the tours start one day after another and finish by mid September.
I guess I am eligible for S3 and S8 and all the groups up to S8 were full, S8 was almost full, so I immediately filled out the application and I was given an application number and I was asked to go through some medical tests, so I tried to fill up my profile as far as I could. I was almost ready but two factors were pulling me back – one is my sister who does not want me to take any risk and the other one is Unnu / she got admission to MBA at Babson and her orientation is from 20 August to 23 August – I guess S8 to be started on 27th or 28th August and I should be in Delhi 4 days before to get my Tibet group visa. So I was in a dilemma but unnu and Prati told me it was absolutely ok as I wanted to do this yatra very passionately.  And the month of May was quite hectic for me as I have been traveling during weekends and another niece with her daughter from India visited me on 20th May and we all had a get together at Prashanthi’s place for the long weekend to celebrate Shakti Babu’s birthday. In the meantime I finished my medical tests and I have all the reports ready from my doctor too. So Tuesday morning, I logged into my profile and I was ready to pay and the payment was not going through, so I sent them an email and came home for lunch and when I went back to office and opened mail from Isha Sacred Walks, to my disappointment I was told that the group was closed and I had to wait until next year and the registration opens up in December, If I hadn’t had inner Engineering, My thought process would be very different since I believe everything happens for our own good; may be I am not in a position to undertake this financially, physically and mentally or for whatever reason. It is not my state of mind after IE, and Sadhguru’s saying resonating in my ears – do not think of what is possible and what is not possible – listening to Sadhguru’s video (as I was at work) –

Sadhguru How To Get What You Want Best Motivational Speech

the essence of that discourse is “get what ever you want by aligning all these four energies – physical energies, mental energies, emotional energies and life energies” I really do not know how to distinguish those energies, but my focus is on going to Kailash this year only and kept on sending emails to Isha Sacred Walks group coming up with excuses that I have been waiting for medical and I got all done and I have reports from my doctor too, then they asked me to send the reports and said that they would place me on the waitlist – something positive from big NO and next year to waitlist this year – I sent them the medical reports and kept on listening to his video, ( it is a 20 min to 30 min video clip) then around 5 pm, I received an email from them informing me that they would put me with S9 (it is a Russian group 😜) anything is ok with me at that moment, the only question I asked them whether there would be anyone from ISHA who speaks English. The next day they have assigned me a new registration number and I have paid, this happened on Wednesday. Either Thursday or Friday, I have received another email from them asking me whether I would be interested to go with an earlier group as there was a cancellation but those dates do not suit me well with Unnu’s orientation and everything. So I clearly explained them the genuine reason of not able to accept their offer and informed them if if were S1, S3 or S8, it would be fine, if it were S1 (which is from 31 July to 14 th August) that would be awesome. Saturday morning I was going to Brooklyn for my New York Cares urban farming project and Sneha was with me and I was explaining her everything that happened from Tuesday to Friday and we both felt it would be awesome if I could get into S1. I came home from the project around 1:30 pm and along with my nieces I went to my sister’s place. While I was on train, I causally opened my mail ( I haven’t done it until then since the midnight), to my surprise and astonishment, there was a mail from ISHA sacred walks that they had an opening in S1 and they put me in. My joy knew no bounds – from a Big NO, try next year to the very group that is comfortable to me in every possible way
“do not think of what is possible and what is not possible” the key mantra 🙏
I am very much mesmerized by Sadhguru by his mystic teachings, his compassionate and powerful and soothing voice ( everyone has to get attracted to it) and the vastness of his knowledge, he just can have discourse on any aspect, his speech flows like a river, never takes a word back, his logical approach to life …
He never preaches, he does not ask you to perform any religious rituals
He asks us to do everything consciously not compulsively 🙏
How I can not bow to Him 🙏
isha volunteerSo I became a proud ISHA volunteer for a 4 day teacher led inner engineering program in New York from 28 June to 1 July – so much humbled and blessed to celebrate my 60th birthday at inner Engineering at ISHA New York center. I always envy ISHA volunteers for their impeccable teamwork, commitment, dedication, involvement. Finally became one 🤗 truly blessed 🙏 became part of ISHA Family #willingness is the key to#Volunteerism –

The question is not about the volume of what you do; the willingness with which you breathe, and walk and live, that makes you a volunteer.” – Sadhguru 

If you are a 24-hour volunteer wherever you are, you always have a very powerful space around you. – Sadhguru

At the IE program where I volunteered during my birthday weekend, the same experience again when Sadhguru was talking about our acceptance to become an Universal Mother – My left hand palm up which was placed on my thigh trembling when I was soaked in tears with my eyes closed while Sadhguru speaking about being a mother to the universe. It was a very emotional moment for me.
The next day while I was doing my Shambhavi, the last part is closing eyes and watching breath and I asked him take me anywhere he wants to and he asked me would I want to be mother for 1 million children (he gave me a big number, I do not remember it exactly, so I gave a random number) – Mother to Universe – what an honor 🙏
Many more in my next blog articles …

Hyderabad to New York

On my return from India on 14 March, after few hours of sleeping on the flight, I started feeling little down and started analyzing my emotional disturbance and started penning my thoughts at that time …

unnuPrati feeling like I left a part of me in Hyderabad and started missing it. I know the best part of me lies in New York but I still yearn for the missing part. New York and Hyderabad are the two places very close to my heart – Hyderabad more for people and their unconditional love but New York, besides people I have a strong affliction with the place it self – the place where I met my soul mate and where we have shared many beautiful moments and I could still feel the warmth of his love for me; saw many hills and valleys  in life;

 

 

and the way New York embraces me and gave me enough sIloveny.pngtrength to battle the loneliness and showed the righteous path and making me a better person day after day after my husband passed away 10 years ago; it extracts some of the imbibed qualities in me and made me a stronger person. I know besides New York, my beloved parents, my husband and Baba are helping me to achieve many things which have been mere dreams in the past; to pull me and provide strength when I become weak and fall on my knees; to recreate my life in a way which I never thought exist.
When I am writing this, I could feel a lump in my throat and tears are just rolling down …