Conditional and Unconditional love

ishaThere is really no such thing as conditional love and unconditional love. There are conditions and there is love – when I saw this message on Isha Foundation FB page few weeks ago – I just brushed it off as I strongly believe in unconditional love (it is not love without conditions, rather love under all conditions – sounds the same meaning, may be love a person/persons or things without expecting anything in return – even love in return). But in contrary to my very own strong belief, few weeks after it is posted on FB, I have posted a message affirming that statement  – as my strong belief and feelings about unconditional love are being shattering and was ready to accept that there were conditions and there was love and no such thing as conditional love and unconditional love. Some of my close people – friends and family, were little worried that something might have happened and some one might have hurted my feelings as they haven’t seen that sort of negativity from my side. I was not questioning someone’s behaviour or actions rather I was questioning my sensitive heart about my love (which I thought unconditional towards some people until now was little bit wavering). I am not sure why I was reacting that way – may be I am expecting too much or atleast some in the way I wanted or may be not able to respond or realize the love I am receiving). I have been in that mood for a day or two and then again became normal. But not sure that I was convinced completely of the existence of unconditional love to which I was held on strongly for decades. Meanwhile I have experienced God’s love and blessings in many ways while I was in India (my Tirupathi visit and Lord Venkateswara’s darshan is a testimony for that fact- kori kanipinchava leka korikani penchava … hopefully in another blog article). But there is a small void somewhere in my heart and a lump in my throat.

Then I returned back to New York and came to my office and to my astonishment saw this on my keyboard – this is from our cleaning lady and she got this nameIMG_0273 plaque custom made from her country – Columbia. She got these for few of our staff (very few I should say) when she went home for a vacation; and then again with the divine intervention, I am slowly on my way back to my norms – believing in the existence of unconditional love – pure bliss, hope and wish to be in this state of being without getting affected by any storms .. am I differing with Sadgaru on this aspect or may be I am not able to understand what exactly he meant by that statement or may be I expect the same quality of love in return from the people so very close to my heart or may be I am not able to realize that love from them even though they are showering love on me boundlessly … I am in a dilemma .. just praying to Baba to give me that resilience to overcome these small nuances …

 

 

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